well im back. i'm like lost in peace for during this. too many experiences dat i've done for bout three years. first i graduated from my senior high school and now im in politeknik kelautan dan perikanan sidoarjo, it's like neva in a million years cause there is semi military eduacation and that's not me anymore. i've been dere for 6 months, so many events dat i've done, from bela negara till basis. i've been through dat for 3 months and now i aint me. im anyone. you know i've crushed on someone, he's too cute and clever enough, he's a sie pend or sie pendidikan. well i know dat when i came dere, de one dat i love isn't him anymore, but de danton, yeps komandan pleton but i dunno why when de mpak was coming and i was in de front row, i've looked for him, the sie pend i mean, and yeah he's becoming a mc. when i first saw him, i know dat i like him but i deny it because im still like de danton too. time de time, i think im in love with de sie pend. well first is just a kidding but why now i do really love him. why? i can't understand wat it is, is this love or just a fan?. all has changed when i know dat de sie pend has had a girlfriend, dat's too SUCK! wat should i do? i suddenly torn in two pieces. i know it from his fb, dats why i hate fb too much. i'd tried too many times to forget bout him, but i can't. how do i clear up dis feeling ha? and get away him from ma mind. i know de truth who im and who he is, dats too impossible dat he knows me more again loves me, thats just a dream high, believe it or not, for 18 years i've neva had a boyfriend and yeah im still available till now. in this life i just wanna find someone dat can love me cause i wanna know how does it feel
